"Despite the fact that we were having fun, I could tell something was missing with our relationship. I left [the day] date with my head spinning. Coming into that evening, I didn't know what to do. For me, spending an evening with someone is something I value and don't take lightly," Dorfman wrote in her People blog.
Dorfman entered the fantasy-suite overnight dates with "some serious reservations," worrying the guys might be very different off-camera -- like she found The Bachelor's eighteenth-season star Juan Pablo Galavis to be when she had competed for his heart and opted to quit the show.
"I have to say that when it comes to last season, I honestly wished Juan Pablo let me go before we went into the fantasy suite. It was a huge step in the relationship and I made a promise to myself that if I didn't see that potential with one of my guys, I wouldn't allow myself to go into the fantasy suite with them," she explained.
"I didn't have the same feelings for Chris as I had with Nick and Josh, so even though it was so difficult, I wanted to be honest with Chris... because I had so much respect for him and how authentic and kind he had always been toward me. I decided it wasn't right to spend the night with Chris in the fantasy suite and it wasn't fair to make him wait for the rose ceremony."
The reality TV star tried to elaborate on why exactly she let Soules go, as she had said during Monday night's episode they lacked the necessary "foundation" for her to even consider moving to his hometown of Iowa.
"What it really came down to though were those intangibles like chemistry, a potential future and most of all, love. Unfortunately, I did not see those things with Chris and I had to make the toughest decision of my journey," Dorfman said.
Dorfman, however, definitely felt that chemistry with Viall and Murray. She was excited to spend the night in privacy with both men.
"I was so glad that they both wanted roses. I couldn't have been happier with my final two guys," Dorfman wrote in her blog of the week's important Rose Ceremony.
"Despite how different they are, they were definitely the two I felt the strongest connection with -- even from the beginning. I couldn't believe it was coming down to the guy I gave my first impression rose to and the guy who's from my hometown!"