Exclusive: Lesley Murphy: I don't regret not telling 'The Bachelor' star Sean Lowe I loved him, even if it could've changed everything
By Elizabeth Kwiatkowski, 02/20/2013
Lesley Murphy is surprised The Bachelor star Sean Lowe believes it "could have changed everything" if she had told him that she loved him during their date in St. Croix, but doesn't regret keeping those three little words to herself.
"It was interesting to hear. I'm not going to lie. It could've changed everything? You know, we'll never know. We'll never know if it could've changed everything. But I can tell you that I'm really happy with how everything worked out, and the only thing I can say is maybe I should've opened up a little more with him," the the eliminated bachelorette told Reality TV World in an exclusive interview on Tuesday.
"But I don't regret not saying the words, 'I love you,' because that's how I felt and I didn't want to say it then. And I'm glad I didn't say it then. I'm not going to throw those words out there, so we'll never know if it would've worked out differently, but I'm happy with life now and the way things are."
Murphy said she was actually planning to express her true feelings to Lowe during their next date had he decided to keep her around and visit her hometown and meet her family.
"I was falling for Sean, I really was, and I wanted to tell him in my hometown in Arkansas. I thought that would be really special for me just because I've grown up there, my family still lives there, and so much love has come from there, that I thought it would be really special to tell him that there. I'm not going to say, 'I love you,' if it doesn't feel right. I'm not going to just throw those words out to anyone anywhere, and that's kind of where I was coming from that," she told us.
Murphy was responding to Lowe's blog posting from last week in which he wrote, "I was shocked to hear her say on TV that she loved me, and I was left confused as to why she didn't tell me that during our date. Had she told me, it could have changed everything."
However, The Bachelor star also reiterated his beliefs on the matter during last night's The Bachelor: Sean Tells All special.
"On our last date in St. Croix, I was really hoping that Lesley would really express how she felt, and I felt like at times, she wanted to, but for whatever reason, she didn't. And there was some awkwardness there. I just felt like at this stage in the game, we should be past the awkwardness," Lowe told host Chris Harrison during the interview-style format.
"I think had she said, 'I love you,' it could've been a game-changer. Sending her home was so difficult and I fretted about it for hours and I went back and forth. And I think that would've been the thing that ultimately would've led me to meet her family."
When Harrison asked Lowe directly whether he would've given Murphy a rose had that been that case, the Bachelor confirmed, "I think I would have."