"[Zak Waddell] is so deserving of love. I would love to see him have the opportunity to choose from 25 suitable women to find it. Who's with me on that?" Hartsock wrote in her People blog, reflecting on her The Bachelorette: The Men Tell All experience.
"Seeing Zak W. was the highlight of my night. He lights up an entire room with his energy and smile, so I was hoping to see that come alive after an incredibly emotional goodbye. I adored his family and have always adored his outlook on life, but there was just something missing between us. It was difficult to face him, because we were both at a loss of words."
Hartsock said Waddell performing a song he wrote for her during last night's special was the biggest surprise of the night and a beautiful one at that.
"I love that he always has something new to share and can be vulnerable enough to express it," Hartsock noted.
"Juan Pablo is such a great guy. He embodies many attractive qualities and not just his incredible good looks. I wish I could have explored that relationship more, but knew that I had stronger relationships formed and didn't want to involve his daughter when I already knew that we didn't have a future," Hartsock explained.
But there were two men present at The Men Tell All whom Hartsock apparently wanted to "turn and run" from -- Ben Scott and James Case.
"I wanted to see if [Ben] learned anything about himself, but, unfortunately, he is the same man today as he was on the show. He wears a face of trickery, and I don't think either of us will ever know who he really is. It felt great to tell him what I thought, because I never wanted him to think that he got away with anything," The Bachelorette star wrote.
As for Case, "I had a hard time deciding whether or not to send him home. Watching it back, I wish I had sent him home on those steps in Spain, but his words were too smooth for me to do that. I feel manipulated, like I was buying every word he was selling. I'm glad that after watching it back I was able to express to him how I felt about the situation."
Hartsock was especially dreading her confrontation with Brian Jarosinski, but since he was a no-show, the conflict was left unturned and unsettled.
"As for the one man who needed the most redemption, Brian had the audacity to come on the show with a girlfriend, but couldn't even face his faults during Men Tell All. An apology would have sufficed, but I suppose that shows more of his character," Hartsock said.