The Bachelor star Grant Ellis has revealed if he doubted his final choice at the Final Rose Ceremony of Season 29.
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But Grant will have to pick only one lady at the end of the season to spend his life with, and he told Us Weekly in a recent interview that it was the "the most important" decision he's ever had to make.
When asked if he was worried about second guessing his final decision, Grant shared with the magazine, "Getting there is one thing. Making the decision and saying it is another thing."
Grant continued, "And having to live with the consequences of hurting somebody -- I've been through it, and I know what it feels like -- is a third. But I never doubted myself."
Grant insisted that he "knew the connections" that he had.
"[But] external factors really caused me to sit and think because America's watching," Grant admitted, suggesting that he wanted to please home viewers with his final choice.
Grant, for example, explained how he believed there was an expectation he'd pick a woman of color as his winner given he's only the second Black Bachelor the franchise has ever had. (The Bachelor's Season 25 star Matt James was the first).
"It's not just me making a decision in my bedroom by myself," Grant noted.
"At the end, making the decision that was best for me was something I really had to consider."
Grant luckily had his father -- who previously struggled with addiction -- come through for him in the end when he was desperate for guidance.
"I'm proud of my dad and where he's at... [You'll] see my relationship with my father come into play. [At the very end], he comes back and gives me some really solid advice -- that's something I've been looking for my whole life," Grant explained.
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"And it's something that helped me get over the edge to make my decision. He's able to come back in my life and help me when I need it the most."
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Grant joked about how his The Bachelor journey was like "a big therapy session" for him.
"Aside from me going on there trying to find love, it helped me understand my feelings and my trauma and really open up," Grant noted.
Grant shared how his biggest fear going into The Bachelor was making the wrong decision in the end or realizing his judgment was off.
"That's scary," Grant acknowledged.
"But I stuck to my guns, stuck to myself, and I think everything played out well."
Grant concluded of his post-The Bachelor life, "Now I'm in a position where I don't have to be lonely anymore. I think that's a love story in itself."
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In a preview that aired at the end of The Bachelor's fifth episode, Grant admits, "I love both of these women, equally, but I can only choose one."
Grant's father advises him to go with his heart and choose the woman who's truly the right match for him.
"I went to bed last night thinking I knew what I wanted, but I woke up and I realized that I still don't," Grant confesses.
The Bachelor host Jesse Palmer proceeds to tell Grant ahead of the Final Rose Ceremony, "Both of the women are on their way here right now. I really need to know which one to send first. Do you feel like you know what you want to do?"
"The truth is," Grant replies, "I don't know."
Grant recently confirmed on the "Off the Vine with Kaitlyn Bristowe" podcast that he had a very "difficult" time at the end of his The Bachelor journey because "the ladies were so great."
Grant elaborated at the time, "The Final 2 were both amazing women, and I had a really hard time. Getting down to that last moment with Jesse and he's like, 'You have to make a decision,' it was something that was hard for me."
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Grant admitted to Kaitlyn Bristowe that he's "an emotional guy" who "didn't want to let somebody down."
The Bachelor star continued, "I had a really difficult time, you know? It was hard because that disappointment of letting somebody down. So y'all have got to tune in and see what happens at the end!"
But Grant assured People earlier this month that The Bachelor ended the way it was supposed to end.
Click here to read spoilers that reveal what happens on the rest of Grant's The Bachelor season, including who he picks as his winner and runner-up.
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