Australian actress Nicole Kidman said she suffered a traumatic miscarriage early in her marriage to Hollywood star Tom Cruise, People.com reported Tuesday.

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"From the minute Tom and I were married, I wanted to have babies," Kidman told Vanity Fair. "And we lost a baby early on, so that was really very traumatic. And that's when we would adopt (daughter) Bella."

She also said: "There's a complicated background to that, given that I never speak much about many things. One day maybe that story will be told."

The Cruises -- who divorced in 2001 after nearly 10 years of marriage -- also adopted a son, Connor.

Asked how it felt to win her 2003 Best Actress Oscar, "Kidman said: "It felt big. It felt lonely and big. You're in a hotel and you're like: 'OK, well, I'm sitting in this big suite with an Oscar, and I still don't have a life. What is wrong with me?' It hit home that I needed to get a life. Who do I jump on the bed with, and celebrate with, and order pancakes with?"

Kidman is now married to country music singer Keith Urban.