Khloe Kardashian opened up about her spirituality and long-held beliefs in an essay penned for weekly newsletter, Lenny.
She discussed the anger she felt at God after her father's death when she was 19 years old. "I didn't understand why someone who was so great, my dad -- why he would be taken away," she wrote. "My dad was such a believer, so I couldn't come to terms with how someone with such a deep relationship with God could be gone. I was young and I needed someone to blame for what had happened."
But Kardashian explained she worked to understand death and spirituality more deeply after the fact, and now prays on a regular basis.
"I'm very conversational with God and spirits. I talk to myself and to them but sometimes unconventionally," she said. "I talk a lot to my dad if I'm feeling something where I wish he were here to guide me. I just don't believe praying has to be so structured. Sometimes I'll just ramble. And I pray more when I'm thankful than in times of need. It's a time of self-reflection. I like to give praise and gratitude. I know how fortunate I am."
The "Strong Looks Better Naked" author also discussed her divorce from Lamar Odom, saying she doesn't believe in divorce but decided to follow through with it for her own health."I am at peace with that decision and do feel like I honored my vows to the very end," she said.
"I feel that I kept the serious vows I made in front of God with every inch of my heart, which is why I am still honoring them today even though my relationship with my ex-husband is in a different place."
