'The Bachelor' star Sean Lowe: I felt like I was wasting my time on the show
By Elizabeth Kwiatkowski, 02/05/2013
The Bachelor star Sean Lowe admits he was worried he may have been wasting his time on the show at this point in the season.
"I left Montana really down on this whole experience. It was the first time I really grew concerned that my potential wife was not amongst this group of women and that I had wasted everyone's time, including my own," Lowe wrote on his People blog.
"I was over the drama, over the women talking about the drama, and just wanted to refocus my energy on what mattered -- finding a partner that I could see myself with for a lifetime."
Most, if not all, of the drama derived from bachelorette Tierra LiCausi, who had no problem isolating herself from the other women in the house while snagging every possible minute she could with Lowe despite how unpopular she was becoming.
"When it came time to make the decision on who gets the rose it was pretty obvious that Tierra was my girl," Lowe said, ultimately acknowledging that Jackie Parr didn't stand much of a chance on his two-on-one date with both girls.
"The dreaded two-on-one date was awkward from the beginning. Trying to show each girl attention during the date was not easy and it was anything but fun. Tierra definitely had the edge on Jackie going into the date, but I was still very open-minded. Jackie is a quiet person who had a hard time standing out. I knew she was sweet and good-looking, but I didn't know much else. I was really hoping that she would break out of her shell on that date and show me something I'd yet to see, but that never came."
However, things apparently might've turned out differently had Lowe gotten to see the side of LiCausi the rest of his bachelorettes were constantly witnessing behind closed doors.
"Keep in mind, I had no idea that the other women disliked her so much! I knew she had a hard time fitting in, but I wasn't privy to the fact that she was simply not nice to the other girls. Things would've been different if I had seen those actions. I definitely was not seeing the same person the other women saw," The Bachelor star said.
LiCausi especially butt heads with Robyn Howard, and Lowe even walked in on the two girls going at it during Monday night's broadcast. Although Lowe coincidentally eliminated Howard after the incident, he claims the argument had nothing to do with his choice.
"The decision to send Robyn home wasn't easy because I truly enjoyed our time together, but I also knew that we didn't share the same chemistry that I had in my other relationships. I had no idea that she had gotten into a fight with Tierra and I definitely didn't send her home because I thought she created drama. It simply came down to chemistry," he explained.
Lowe certainly, however, had a strong connection with Lindsay Yenter, who clearly left a big impression on him by the end of their first one-on-one date.
"What you didn't get to see on TV was Lindsay and I wrestling! This tiny girl told me that she wrestled in high school, so of course I had to challenge her to a match. I've got about 100 lbs. on her, but she still took me down. I love Lindsay's playful and fun spirit, and it's what really separated her from everyone else," Lowe wrote.
"Every other girl would hound me about getting a one-on-one date and Lindsay never did. Instead, she would always remind me that she's not going anywhere and she thinks it's good that I get to know everyone else so that I'll eventually learn that she's the one for me... It was one of the most memorable nights of my life. Lindsay definitely solidified herself as a front-runner in my mind."