Kaitlyn Bristowe, whom The Bachelor star Chris Soules dumped after his round of overnight fantasy-suite dates, is apparently still in pain from the breakup and misses him.

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"My heart was beating out of my chest watching that," Bristowe told host Chris Harrison at The Women Tell All after the recap of her entire experience on the show played. "My heart still hurts and I feel like I'm put right back into that moment. It was like an out-of-body experience. I was just crushed."

Bristowe said, "I can pinpoint the moment when my heart just broke," and that was when Chris called Whitney Bischoff's name at the Rose Ceremony. That was the moment she realized she was going home, because after Soules spoke to Becca Tilley in private, he asked her to return to the group. Tilley therefore seemed like the obvious rose.

When Harrison asked Bristowe if she misses Soules, she quickly and bluntly replied, "Totally."

Bristowe admitted she had never been more confident this season than she was at the Rose Ceremony in which she got eliminated. She had fallen in love with Soules and let her guard down. Soules had also expressed how he was falling in love with her in return, and the couple had enjoyed an "intimate" and "romantic connection" during their fantasy-suite date.

"Honest to God, I think about this every day -- every single day since [my ouster] -- I've been like, 'Why couldn't he have given me just one tiny little sign that maybe I wasn't the one,'" the 29-year-old dance instructor from Canada said on The Women Tell All.

Bristowe also insisted she would've loved to live in Arlington, IA. She had no qualms about it.

Although Bristowe was in search of a genuine explanation from Soules as to why he sent her packing, the Bachelor still couldn't find the right words. He was hoping for an "ah-ha moment" but never got it and acknowledged he could've handled the situation better. Soules said Bristowe deserved respect and he ultimately did the best he could.


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