Just because former Meet the Barkers' co-stars Travis Barker and Shanna Moakler are celebrities apparently didn't make their most recent split any less difficult to deal with.

"We separated, and for me it's very disappointing," Moakler told People while attending the HER Energy Drink Luau, a benefit for the Nicole Brown Foundation at L.A.'s Playboy Mansion on Saturday. "I consider him the love of my life."

Moakler, a former Miss USA and Playboy model who appeared in the third season of ABC's Dancing with the Stars, and Barker, the former drummer for Blink 182, were married in 2004. 

Meet the Barkers, the couple's Newlyweds-like MTV reality series, lasted two seasons. Broadcast between April 2005 and March 2006, the 12-episode series followed the daily happenings of Barker, Moakler, their two children (three-year-old son Landon and one-year-old daughter Alabama), and Moakler's seven-year-old daughter Atiana (whom she had with boxer Oscar de la Hoya). 

Barker originally filed for divorce from Moakler in August 2006, but reports that they were reconciling surfaced after the couple was spotted "in full make-out mode" in January.  Moakler eventually confirmed the rumors in March when Barker threw her a 32nd birthday bash and the two were seen kissing again.  However late month, new reports that they had separated for a second time emerged.

"I think the demise of a marriage is like a death, and there is a mourning that goes with it. It's devastating," Moakler told People.  "I know that I gave it 100%, and I really tried.  Where it's going to go I have no idea."

Despite the uncertainty her future holds, Moakler has already found employment.  She'll have a cameo in an upcoming episode of HBO's Entourage and was also tabbed to host The CW's Crowned: The Mother of All Pageants --  a new 2007-2008 midseason The CW reality series that will require mothers and daughters to work together to win a beauty pageant.

"I'm kind of getting back to myself, my work and things like that," she told People.  "I'm going out with my girlfriends and going to fun places like this, trying not to think about it... Even my dad was like, 'You are not allowed to date for three to six months.' I don't think I should either."

"I think, more than anything, Travis and I have the main goal of trying to be the best parents for our children that we can be," Moakler told People.  "So whatever that entails, we'll definitely do 100%."