Kelly Clarkson: "I wanted to kill myself" when I was "really skinny"
UPI News Service, 10/24/2017
Kelly Clarkson wanted to kill herself during "a very dark" time in her life.
The 35-year-old singer and original "American Idol" winner said in an interview with Attitude magazine that people didn't realize she was "miserable" for years because she was thin and therefore "made sense."
"When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself," she confessed. "I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense."
Clarkson said she became skinny because she was at the gym "all the time" as a way to deal with her unhappiness.
"It was a very dark time for me," she recalled. "I thought the only way out was quitting. I, like, wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time."
Clarkson told the magazine she "got out" of her dark place with the help of "a lot of great people." She clarified her comments on her suicidal thoughts and weight in a series of tweets Tuesday.
"Just to clear something up. I wasn't ever miserable because I had to be thin. I said I was miserable & as a result I became thin," the star wrote.
"I've never contemplated suicide because of my weight," she asserted. "I said people had no idea I was unhappy oddly enough because I appeared healthy."
Clarkson came to fame by winning Season 1 of the Fox reality competition "American Idol."
She has since released seven studio albums, and will release the new record Meaning of Life on Friday, Oct. 27.
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