"I was really disappointed because at no point and time on Tuesday night or before I went to bed on Tuesday or preparing for Wednesday night did I think that I'd be going home. Not this week," the newly ousted American Idol 6 finalist told reporters during a conference call on Thursday.
Following her performance of "Smile," Idol judge Randy Jackson thought it was a "very nice controlled performance from the rocker girl" while Paula Abdul commented it was "flawless, understated, beautiful and sentimental." Only Simon Cowell wasn't positive, apologizing to Glocksen that he couldn't "rave about the vocals."
"I thought that I had a really good performance on Tuesday and I was really proud of the song that I chose and the way that I chose to present it... so it was emotional to know I'd be going home," said Glocksen. "I didn't even have a chance to be in the bottom three ever, and the one time that I was I'm going home. So it was pretty hard."
Glocksen was known as Idol 6's resident rocker, belting out such tunes as "Stand By You" and "Paint It Black." However she admitted the Idol finalists are "completely clueless" of what viewers want.
"It's talent... that's why we're here and why we were cast for the show. But at the end of the day, you just don't know what America wants," said Glocksen. "You don't know if it's based on talent, personality... your style, your hair, your clothes. But you just have to stay true to yourself and make sure that you stay focused on what you're there for, and that's vocal talent... So we just have to make sure we take the judges' comments to heart and stay true to who we are. That's what's going to take you far in the competition."
She should know what takes you far in the competition, having auditioned for Idol three times before finally making it all the way to the finals on the sixth season. After previously trying out for Idol three times (and making it to the competition's Hollywood Week round once), Glocksen said she took some vocal lessons in Chicago and began "working on how to make her voice work with different genres."
"I wouldn't have done it any other way," said Glocksen. "I'm glad that I got cut the previous rounds when I did because they obviously thought that I had things to work on and I did that and I had a couple years to work on it. I think that really came out this year. I think that the time worked out perfectly for me. I did what I had to do and I did it well."
Check back with Reality TV World on Friday for more about Glocksen's exit interview, including what happened to her tongue ring, whether her rocker-girl image was just a front, and which judge she considered a parent.