Courtney Robertson apologizes to skeptical 'Bachelor' bachelorettes
By Elizabeth Kwiatkowski, 03/06/2012
Courtney Robertson appeared on last night's The Bachelor: The Women Tell All special and offered her fellow bachelorettes an apology for her controversial behavior throughout the show's sixteenth season, however they rejected it as being insincere.
While the women bashed Robertson during Monday night's reunion special and admitted they believed she was two-faced, manipulative and didn't go on the show to find love with The Bachelor star Ben Flajnik, Robertson took responsibility for her actions and told host Chris Harrison their judgments were completely justified.
"I think they were totally fair. I think they were fair to be honest with you. I have many regrets. I'm disappointed in myself and the way that I acted and how I treated the women. I wish I would have, looking back, there were so many things I would have done differently," explained Robertson, who was shown during The Bachelor's broadcasts engaging in seductive and aggressive behavior to catch Flajnik's attention and promote jealousy amongst her fellow bachelorette competitors.
Robertson also apologized to bachelorette Blakeley Shea for calling her a stripper and told Emily O'Brien -- who had extended Robertson an olive branch and wanted to start a friendship after the two had struggled with a tense relationship during the season -- she wished she had accepted her apology and let things go.
Although Robertson told the bachelorettes she was "humiliated" by her behavior and kept pressing the idea she was a different person on TV than in real life, the women remained skeptical and questioned whether she was just attempting to repair her reputation.
"When you apologized to Ben about how you treated us, it wasn't to us, it was to Ben. And so, to me looking at it now, it still feels like it was because you wanted to go to the next level with Ben. You wanted to be top two and it might not have had anything to do with feeling bad about what you said to any of us," Jennifer Fritsch said.
"I wish that they had a chance to get to know me better and know my story a little bit. I just want to say sorry," Robertson told Harrison.
"I came into this with the same hopes and dreams that you guys all did. We all came here for the same reasons, for Ben, and I'm sorry for the things I've said and if I've hurt your feelings -- anyone, everyone -- I'm really sorry for that. I hope you guys can find it in your heart to forgive me. I'm not a mean-spirited person. It brought out the worst in me and I can't apologize enough, I really can't."
Harrison then asked the 28-year-old model from Santa Monica, CA, how she had been handling the "relentless press."
"It's been really hard -- to say the least. Not in a million years did I expect for it to turn out like this and it's affecting my family negatively and my friends. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through and I just can't apologize enough. No one gives you a manual on how to be on The Bachelor and how to handle things, and I handled it poorly," Robertson explained.
"I have seen things in myself that I know I need to work on and I didn't come here expecting for you guys to accept my apology at all. I'm just saying I'm sorry."
In addition, Robertson -- who will by vying for Flajnik's heart during next week's season-finale episode against bachelorette Lindzi Cox -- told the women if she could take back all the bad things she had said about everyone, she would.
"I'm sorry, I take it all back. I thought I did the best that I could. I'm really sorry I hurt your feelings, all of you. And you may say it's not genuine, but I'm going through real emotions and I don't like being torn apart -- my family, my friends and the tabloids -- it's awful. I didn't think it through," Robertson said while bursting into tears, losing the composure she had maintained throughout most of the interview.
"If I could have gone back and thought ahead... I would have handled myself differently. I was really defensive. [Emily], I should have accepted your apology. I shouldn't have said mean things and I'm sorry, and that's why I'm here -- to say I'm sorry and I'm sorry for hurting Ben. I cared for him and still do, and I would never want to -- I don't know. I'm sorry."