90 Day Fiance star Deavan Clegg has lashed out at 90 Day Fiance's production company and suggested they nearly drove her and other cast members to commit suicide.

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Deavan took to Instagram on Thursday to express her innermost thoughts about the last two years of her life and how starring on 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way impacted her life, sometimes in a severely negative way.

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"The past two years have been the hardest I've ever experienced in my life. My life is forever changed by this show. Some good some bad," Deavan began in her post, which captioned a photo of Deavan posing in a mirror.

"I want to personally thank the Korean film crew who was apart from sharp."

Deavan was referring to Sharp Entertainment, the production company behind the 90 Day Fiance franchise, including her two seasons of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way.

Deavan gushed about how the Korean film crew was "kind and loyal," unlike Sharp, and held her hand through most of her journey on 90 Day Fiance.

"I wish I could say the same about Sharp. I also want to thank [cosmetologist Rosa Suh] for helping me through all of this, you are amazing and I couldn't ask for anyone else to be by my side," Deavan continued.

"This experience has taught me so much.. although grateful for the opportunities this show has brought. The greater lesson I've learned is how evil some people can be. The truth of reality is dark and evil."

"Fake scenarios taken from real life to ruin many peoples lives," she added.

"My heart goes out to the many people who have taken their lives this year due to reality tv going to far. I hope this recent season has taught Sharp a lesson."

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Deavan went on to infer that the editing of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way's second season was inaccurate or a misrepresentation of what really happened in her life with estranged husband Jihoon Lee.

"There was a lot cut the second half of the season. Alot of over the line things bringing many of the cast members to almost take their lives. Me being one of them," Deavan admitted.

"I will post the video TLC showed in the trailer the video was my goodbye. This experience took me to a dark place I never want to revisit."

Deavan, however, noted she also met some "amazing people in Korea" along the way who helped her through the dark times.

"I hope future cast members are treated fairly and not as money bags or other puppets," Deavan wrote in her lengthy post.

"I also want to thank [90 Day Fiance: The Other Way Season 1 alum Tiffany Franco] for being my friend and supporting me during this hard journey and [90 Day Fiance: Before the 90 Days Season 4 alum Erika Owens] when we would have our midnight phone calls together she helped me through the abuse and I am forever grateful."

Deavan -- who added the hashtags "f-ck reality" and "nothing is what it seems to her post -- also thanked 90 Day Fiance Instagrammer John Yates for being a shoulder to cry on.

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During a November video interview, John asked Deavan whether she was done with TLC and filming 90 Day Fiance for good.

"I am one hundred percent done [filming], one hundred percent done. I tried my best with my contract and did everything they wanted me to, protecting [them], but then the one thing they promised me, they couldn't return. And that's why I've been more open, and they are aware of that," Deavan explained.

Deavan recently accused 90 Day Fiance's editing team of making Drascilla look like an out-of-control child, and she also alleged that Jihoon had abused her daughter. (Jihoon totally denied ever laying a hand on Drascilla).

"They're also aware of everything that happened to my daughter," Deavan noted. "So it's just something that I can't forgive. Now I'm not blaming them for anything, but I was with them for two years."

Deavan said she filmed straight for two years, Seasons 1 and 2 of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way.

"Building those close relationships and bonds with my producer, it really broke my heart to see that happen, because I put all of my trust in them for Season 2," Deavan said.

Deavan also said reality TV is "a toxic industry" and some scenes were "heavily, heavily produced."

Deavan, in fact, confessed she and Jihoon had faked many scenes of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way -- including their engagement in a Las Vegas restaurant -- and the couple was practically already broken up by the time they started filming the spinoff's second season.

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"I was supposed to protect my family, and I went to Korea when I shouldn't have," Deavan told John.

"And I'm very hard on myself and very critical of myself for that. There are certain things, like, unfortunately I feel like me and my ex were done before we even started filming Season 2... I should've stuck with the way I felt instead of filming the show because I needed the money. I should have just stayed home."

Deavan and Jihoon were shown working on their marriage on Season 2 of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way, and the finale featured the pair enjoying a traditional wedding in South Korea.

"I feel like I'm making the right decision right now, and that makes it all worth it," Deavan told the cameras. "Before Jihoon, I've never felt what it's like to be in love with someone, and I can truly say right now that I feel like I really love Jihoon."

But the couple's marriage began to crumble when they were forced to quarantine together in their small apartment with Deavan's two kids, Drascilla and Taeyang, amid the outbreak of the coronavirus pandemic earlier this year.

Deavan claimed Jihoon just played video games in his room all day and wasn't helping out with the kids.

"So, a lot of stuff has been happening. My marriage is kind of on the line. We've been fighting so much and so [many] differences have popped up that I see in both of us. I feel the only way to fix my marriage is to go back to America for one month," Deavan explained to the cameras.

"Being stuck in the apartment together has just been really difficult. I feel like I need to figure out how I really feel about him. I need time to reflect and think about all the things that have happened."

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Jihoon told Deavan that he was going to miss his family and she was running away from him, but Deavan insisted she was leaving to stop fighting and hopefully fix their marriage.

Deavan admittedly had mixed emotions about her decision, and she just hoped leaving South Korea wouldn't make her relationship worse. And Jihoon felt "empty and sad" after Deavan left, and he worried Deavan might never return to his home, which he said would be "worst case scenario."

Deavan revealed in August she had moved back to the United States after trying to move to South Korea for the second time.

Deavan claimed "disgusting things" happened off-camera between Jihoon, herself and her children and her estranged husband had done "the most vile thing possible" to make her want to leave South Korea.

Jihoon then confirmed he and Deavan split in August after one year of marriage, which was around the same time Deavan started hinting she was in a new relationship by posting photos of an unidentified man on Instagram with his face cropped out.

Deavan and her new boyfriend, Korean-American actor Christopher "Topher" Park, went Instagram official in mid-September when Topher posted sexy photos with Deavan on social media, and Deavan has been gushing about her man ever since.

Deavan revealed she actually met Topher in the Los Angeles airport while she was still in a relationship with Jihoon but the pair's first interaction was casual and they didn't follow up on anything until Deavan became single again.

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Deavan told John in her video interview that Topher is "so good" with Drascilla, her daughter from a previous relationship, and Taeyang, whom she shares with Jihoon.

After dating for a brief amount of time, Deavan and Topher moved in together.

Deavan told John that Jihoon has blocked her and her entire family on every account and they'll handle things in court at a later date but she's not withholding Taeyang from Jihoon.

In addition, Deavan explained she's not even thinking about an engagement to Topher right now because she's "just trying to get divorced first."

Deavan confirmed in September on her Instagram Stories she had filed for divorce but Jihoon was dragging out the process by not signing the papers and cooperating.

Deavan and Jihoon will not be appearing on the Season 2 Tell-All of 90 Day Fiance: The Other Way, but Deavan revealed she will be creating her own documentary or Tell-All for release in December 2020 or January 2021.

"It's going to show who we really are," Deavan said, adding that it will feature Topher as well.

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