The Bachelor star Ben Higgins says it wasn't easy to let Emily Ferguson go after she met his parents but it was necessary.
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"[The extra time] with Emily is something I really needed. I had been so impressed with how far she had come just as a woman in the past few weeks, but I would be lying if I said I didn't have questions about whether or not she could really be my wife, Higgins wrote in his People blog.
"Sometimes it can be hard balancing my admiration and appreciation for someone as a person with whether or not we are actually a match, and that is where I was with Emily."
Higgins explained there was no opinion he trusted more than that of his parents.
"I knew that if anyone could give me perspective and help me make that decision, it was them. Besides, I had already been to Emily's [Las Vegas] home and met her mom, it seemed only fair that she got to see my home and meet my parents too," he said.
While Higgins' mom and dad thought Ferguson was fun and beautiful, they both worried she was too young for their son. It wasn't really about age, but more so the fear she wasn't mature enough or ready to settle down yet and be a wife. Ferguson talked about how many goals she still had left to accomplish without including Higgins in that future plan.
"Talking to my parents as the day went, I knew what I had to do. I could tell that as I was talking to my mom and dad I was really not only trying to convince them of how great Emily was, I was also trying to convince myself. Not that I don't think she is amazing, but I was trying to convince myself that I really could see myself with her long term. I knew what I had to do," Higgins explained.
"The hardest part of that was the boat ride back to the girls' house. It was not far but it felt like forever to me because I knew I was about to let go of a really wonderful woman. And as she realized we were headed back to the house and not on to the next part of the date, it got really, really awkward."
But Ferguson took the split very well, as she was gracious and kind to the Bachelor despite getting her heart broken.
"If Emily's reaction while we were breaking up wasn't a sign of the maturity that people don't often give her credit for, I don't know what will," Higgins said. "I was so impressed and as much easier as that made it for me, it also made it harder because she was showing the maturity that I was questioning that she had with my parents. Life decisions can be hard sometimes."
The Bachelor airs every Monday night from 8-10PM ET/PT on ABC.
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