Christmas finished Season 19 of Big Brother in third place after Josh won the final Head of Household competition and cast the sole vote to evict her in order to bring Paul -- an equally disliked player with many enemies in the jury -- to the end.
At the time, Christmas was proud of Josh for making a move with his head instead of his heart because she was convinced she would have had him beat.
"I believe the jury would have voted for me [to win]," Christmas toldEntertainment Weekly.
Josh's decision to send Christmas packing seemed like a shocking and risky move at the time; however, because Christmas had been his No. 1 ally all season long and Paul had a very impressive Big Brother resume to brag about, not to mention he controlled most of the players this season.
Once Josh put Christmas on the jury, she also decided that her vote belonged to Paul for the win.
"Paul was always five steps ahead," Christmas explained, adding that she still stands by her choice. "Josh also said he was going to take me to Final 2. When he did not take me to Final 2, I knew where I had to put my vote."
It was a tough blow for Christmas to lose the game so close to the end and watch her two allies duke it out for $500,000 grand prize.
"It was really crushing," the fitness enthusiast from North Carolina said of her exit. "It hurts my heart. It was really, really difficult for me."
Had Christmas ended up in the Final 2 with Paul instead, she believes it would have been no contest. (The jury split their votes between Josh and Paul 5-4, respectively).
"I definitely believe people would have looked at me versus Paul and at least a majority of the jury would have given me the votes," Christmas insisted. "So knowing that, it's a bittersweet pill to swallow."
When Paul and Josh both spoke with EW, they agreed Christmas would have won the game against them because she had never backstabbed, tormented or lied to people who considered her a friend or ally in the Big Brother house. Paul and Josh had both assumed the jury was going to be bitter and emotional.