'The X Factor' contestant Don Philip: I considered suicide after my failed audition
By Elizabeth Kwiatkowski, 09/17/2012
The X Factor's Thursday night episode, which marked the second broadcast of the series' special two-night premiere, apparently featured even more of an uncomfortable exchange between the judges and contestant Don Philip than viewers got to see.
Philip, who came across as judge Britney Spears' biggest fan and reminisced about the time he sang a duet with her over 10 years ago, appeared to be in utter distress before, during and after his The X Factor audition for largely unexplained reasons.
"I think they were scared I was going to kill myself," Philip toldThe New York Post.
According to Philip, The X Factor judges Spears, Demi Lovato, Simon Cowell and L.A. Reid pressured him into revealing that he was gay -- which Philip believed he had told the show's producers in confidence prior to his audition -- while he was onstage auditioning.
"After that thing, I went home and had thoughts of [suicide]. I was so destroyed that they set me up," Philip told The Post, further elaborating on how the incident played out during his audition at the show's San Francisco auditions.
"When I got onstage, [the judges] chimed in saying, 'What is your secret?'" Philip explained. "I knew immediately what they were talking about. I only had one secret."
Philip reportedly freaked Spears out when he then turned the conversation into a very personal matter between the two them.
"[I told her] 'I didn't think you thought it was okay that I am gay,'" Philip said, adding that Spears then replied, "I think it is fine that you are gay."
At that moment, according to The Post, Philip began crying onstage.
"I never thought I would see you again," Philip told Spears in a scene that was actually edited into the episode and then followed by his performance in which his voice allegedly "froze."
Once the judges unanimously decided to send Philip home, he fell to his knees backstage and said, "I think I have hurt [Spears]."